I need an attitude adjustment. I think I have been using this miserable, awful, horrible first trimester as an excuse to rage. Add Jordon's crippling Gout on top of my misery, and we really haven't done anything except sit on our asses for the last 3 weeks. It isn't as satisfying as I thought it would be.
It is only 65* right now, and I think I will make the best of this break in heat by taking the boys to the park. That ought to shock the hell out of them... Mom DOING something? Something FUN even?
My poor kids. They are such troopers.
***UPDATE***
Back from the park... we were gone for 45 minutes and it is amazing what fun can be had in such a short amount of time. Eli got to chase a dog around, (his favorite past time) and Braedon made a new friend which is ALL he ever wants.
They played in the sprinklers that were watering the park grounds and splashed around in the decorative fountain for a little bit. Eli lost a shoe in the muddy baseball diamond and Braedon thought it was hilarious watching him walk around with one shoe on and one shoe off.
Why are these things so hard for me to do sometimes? They shouldn't be! I never regret doing them!
I have such strong beliefs about happiness and contentment. I KNOW how to be happy... I KNOW how to be content. It has always been a personality trait I have been very proud of. Lately, though, I believe but do not live. That makes me a hypocrite. I do NOT want to be a hypocrite.
I have everything I need in life to be happy. And happy I will be.
Rant
Please, dear friends and family! Please stop complaining to me! I am sorry you have no money. Try living within your means! It works! Really! You don't NEED that $100 pair of jeans! REALLY you don't!
I am not sorry that you haven't gotten out alone in a couple of weeks. We haven't been away from our kids overnight ONCE since they have been born! Who would watch them?
I am not trying to unsympathetic... but we work our asses off to provide a good life for our children, and our sacrifices are made silently and without grief. It is easy for me to appreciate the life we have created for ourselves until YOU ALL come along and make my life sound pathetic through the complaints about your own.
Please. Keep it to yourself.
I am not sorry that you haven't gotten out alone in a couple of weeks. We haven't been away from our kids overnight ONCE since they have been born! Who would watch them?
I am not trying to unsympathetic... but we work our asses off to provide a good life for our children, and our sacrifices are made silently and without grief. It is easy for me to appreciate the life we have created for ourselves until YOU ALL come along and make my life sound pathetic through the complaints about your own.
Please. Keep it to yourself.
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